Wednesday.

I haven't felt well mentally since my cousin passed away. That, combined with a lot of other craptastic happenings have killed my motivation. I don't want to write, don't want to go to class, don't want to study. Going to the gym is about the only thing I am motivated to do right now. I managed to get three more articles in today for the cutoff. Payday is Friday. I plan to get a couple articles written for another site this evening after I go to the gym, so they will pay Friday as well. This weekend, I have drill, so it will be a wash. Tomorrow I have a doctor appointment in the morning, but should be able to write all day after that, until I pick up the kids to go workout. And I'll have some time Friday afternoon after I get back from the gym.

I just hate this down, depressed time. I want to do so much, but can't get myself to do it.

No Examiner for me. :(

Well, I was very excited to begin working as an Examiner at Examiner.com. So much so that I was running around the house singing for an hour after I got the "Welcome to the team email." As much as I hated to, I had to turn down their offer, due to a couple personal reasons. I was so excited about it, and very grateful to them for selecting me and giving me a chance to work with them. There are just a couple reasons that I can't do it. I'm kind of sad about it, but I guess everything happens for a reason. Just have to press on in other areas.

Death Surrounds Me...

And I'm really so tired of it. First my cousin, my sister's employee, and a fellow blogger. Tonight, my dear husband is making a notification to a family of a deceased sailor. They just made the notification about 30 minutes ago, and are about 5 hours from home, so I doubt he'll be home tonight. I can't go into details, but it is a bad deal. I don't know how much more I can take. I feel sad for the sailor's family, but I am not worried to be home alone without the DH. My home is protected by Smith & Wesson, and not only have I been in the military for 12 years, I was raised with firearms, and learned to shoot and clean one when I was 8. Yes, I am from Southern Illinois, we do that there.

I was sick today, and couldn't make it to class. My writing suffered, and so did my diet. I ate more than I wanted to (I have set impossible goals for myself I think), and I wrote less than I wanted to. My paycheck for this week is going to suck. Next week I have to study for mid-terms, and the following week I am going home to visit with family in Indiana and Illinois, and they only have crappy dial-up, so I won't be able to work. I'm not hurting for money, but it's hard to continue to work on my debt snowball if my income isn't also snowballing.

I did make a doctor appointment for me for Thursday to get a medical issue looked into. I plan to go to the gym to work out tomorrow. I will salvage the week somehow. I hope my next blog post is happier.

February's Goals - Wrap Up.

Well, I did pretty good for February's goals:

40 / 50 - Site
20 / 25 - AC
19 / 10 - Helium
19 / 15 - Blog Posts
1 / 1 - eHow
1 / 1 - Examiner
1 / 2 - Textbroker

I set up three blogs, got started on Facebook, applied to Examiner and got selected, and did quite a bit of article promotion, so I think it's been a good month. And I lost about a week of work time due to my cousin's funeral and orthodontist appointments and other stuff. March will bring Spring Break, so I'll lose a week this month, too. My goals for March, however, will be:

50 - Site
25 - AC
10 - Helium
50- Blog Posts in my 3 blogs
20 - eHow
20 - Examiner
5 - Textbroker

I'd like to post a few articles on another site I'm thinking of writing for, but haven't decided to take the plunge yet. And I'm starting a new fitness plan, so we'll see how it goes. :)